love.

Why do I want this person?

Why is love so attractive?

Is love the greatest thing in the world or the worst?

I. can't. wait.

PEOPLE.

people are pretty stupid.

and they live to hurt you.

especially girls.

:P

..so i was thinking...

Alright...

I just realized. I can't please everyone.

It's near to impossible. . . and as much as I want to, as much as I want everyone to be everyones friend and for everyone to happy with me all the time, THAT CAN'T AND WILL NOT HAPPEN.

So I just need to rely on the friends that love me for me and the people I don't have to live to please every day. And I can not thank those people enough for putting up with me ;)

Last night I went to "Late Night" hosted by CHAOS (our church youth group). I just watched the relationship those teenagers have with each other. They are each their own individual and they each love each other unconditionally because of that. They seem to live so simply with one another. They know that God loves them, they love each other, and the rest is the least of their worries. And THAT is a cool feeling. I think if you can live like that, your life is complete.

Probably Not.

I am pretty sure a lot of people aren't too fond of me right now.

And it hurts. a lot.

And I'm really really sorry.

And I'm not quite sure how to fix it.

Some of me doesn't care.
But a lot of me does care.

I never feel like I am 100% pleasing people.

Will I ever be satisfied with myself?



Probably not.

My Life Would Suck Without You.

Madison came over today... She did my make up and made me look like a model, she shook her butt to Untouched in front of a window for everyone to see, I asked my brother where my volleyball was and SHE told me exactly where to find it, she took facebook pictures with me, she acted like a complete idiot, she made me laugh... i'm not really sure what i would do without her.

i

love

you

madison.

So I'm thinking--

Sophia,
Thank you for helping me start this blog thing.
I'm not sure when i will finally be successful at it. (:
But I'll work on it... hopefully.
LOVE YOU.
Maddie