nott too sure...

Yeah, homecoming was one of the best nights of my life.
SO. FUN.
i thought things were going to change.
but they didnt.
turrnss outtttt..
evryone just needed to grind on the opposite sex the whole time;)
which was funn.
but didnt change too much.
ssooo i thought i liked him,
but probably not.
im back to just waiting(:

<3

whateverrrrr:(

POLAND

This summer I am going on a mission trip to Jastrzebie in Poland. And I can not tell you how excited I am to be going. I am honestly so ready to get out of America for a while.. thats for sure. :) Just get away from everything, and enjoy myself for 12 days with kids and people I have never met. It's just really exciting ... every day something excites me more. I have been able to get to know someone from Poland that is visiting America for two weeks. She has given me a lot more confidence to be able to even go to Poland. So when I go there, I will have a friend, and I just feel more welcome there now I guess. I don't know, but all the sudden I am so happy to be going on this trip. I guess this will be a great expirience, so you all have fun here while I am running around with Polish people :) See you all soon! PEACE OUT :)

:P

I can honestly say i do not understand you.

And i never will.

:P

crazy.

So yeah, I'm trying to figure everything out.
And honestly I dont know.
I'm so caught.
Why am i even trying to figure my future out ... I'm just 14.

This. Is. C R A Z Y .

Whatever. I'll wait and see...

Even though I hate waiting with a passion. :)

<3 <3 <3

I think that possibly maybe i'm falling for Y O U ,

there's a chance that i've fallen quite hard over y. o. u.

i've seen the paths that your eyes wonder down..

i wanna come too.

... i think that possibly maybe i'm f a l l i n g for you ...

no one understands me, quite like you do

through all the shadowy corners of me.

i never knew just what is was about this old coffee shop

i love so much, all of the while.. i never knew.

i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop

i love so much, all of the while i never knew.

i think that p.o.s.s.i.b.l.y m.a.y.b.e. i'm falling for you,

yes, there's a chance that i've fallen quite hard over you.

i've seen the waters that make your eyes shine,

now i'm shining too. .

because oh because

I ' VE FALLEN QUITE HARD OVER Y O U .

..if i didn't know you, i'd rather not know ...

... if i didn't have you, i'd rather be alone ...

i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop

i love so much, all of the while .. i never knew.

i never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop

i love so much, all of the while i never knew.

all of the while

all of the while it was y o u .

y o u

y o u

YOU.

<3

CAMPCHAOS09.

BEST. WEEKEND. EVER.
I don't even know where to begin. Well I guess I can start off with I was at Camp Chaos this weekend, and it's honestly crazy. Since I knew CHAOS (our youth group) exsisted I was jumping up and down to be one of the "chaosers", to be one of the teenagers that stand up for Jesus Christ every day because of their undying love for Him. The ones that are basically a family of amazing teenagers. And just a couple days ago I got to go to Camp Wartburg with all of them, I am FINALLY OLD ENOUGH. And I didn't really realize where I was or what I was doing until Saturday nights devotions. We were outside in the forrest around a camp fire, we sang some praise songs like we had the night before, and our youth director went in front of the fire and talked about our theme for the week. BE DIFFERENT. BE LOVE. And told us just what that meant. And to be honest..lately I haven't felt like I am that close to God, and I have felt distant. Like something is wrong, something was missing, I wasn't doing something right. And then our youth director instructed everyone to write on a card he gave us, something we thought was separating us from God, a guilt that we wanted to get rid of. And on mine I wrote SELFISHNESS. Because I think that is what it boils down to for me, just being selfish. Thinking about me and only me.. thinking about how I feel, and what I want, NOT loving everyone as a Christian.. like our devotion was telling us. So I walked up to the fire and placed my card into the fire, and when I sat back down in my seat and I started crying.. I'm not sure why. I guess it was just the surrealness of all of this. I felt close to God, more then ever. I felt like I had just given myself up, I didn't care. And just the reality that I was HERE. I had made it here, to CHAOS! To the group I have been waiting to be in my whole life, to be with the young adults who I have admired forever. And everything was just falling into place. Being able to just get away this weekend to figure all this out, was incredible. I didn't know God could work in the coolest ways like this. And to know that GOD LOVES ME and is working in me, is so insane. I will never forget this weekend, and the amazing time and feeling I had. And I am trying as hard as I can to be self-less and to love God with my EVERYTHING, and to

BE DIFFERENT. BE LOVE. <3333